This week is just not my week..

Title states it all.. yeap... it's not the week i wanted it to be.. it's not even like any other normal weeks.. take today as an example.. shermane wore black on d past few days... so i taught she might wear black tees again today.. bt i was wrong.. instead, she wore white.. i guess we dont have "yun" as what us chinese calls it. And yeah... she's celebrating her birthday on saturday.. in redbox pavilion. I'm not sure if shermane herself is reading this. Bt i still gotta express myself here.(cuz twitter can only put up to 140 letters -.-) I was quite was i'm going to do though.. cause i could totally imagine shermane sitting wit her bf.. talking and laughing with him while i'm just sitting there, watching them having fun and all blah blah blah.. I must admit I'm kinda jealous though.. bt the only thing i worry is if they're gonna make out in that room with me looking.. i dun even knw what WILL happen.. burst into tears? get mad at her? i cant imagine anything.. I knw it's harsh.. bt i really hoped that she'd break up with him someday.. and well be with me.. i knw my transfer to her school had failed.. and it really impact me alot.. dont feel like going to school tomorrow.. getting sick of everything.. especially the government... I mean like, why cant they just approve me and let me go there. My form 2 results are not bad what.. only my bloody UPSR had 5 out of 7 As.. which is why i hated chinese that much.. if only i was in malay school.. i could totally get into sbs and be with her all the time.. now it's particularly hard for me to see her.. especially next year.. I doubt my mom would want me to go to that tuition centre.. which is the only way i could see her everday.. -.- i know this blog is open to all. Bt if anyone named adrian pang from sbs form 4 is reading this.. well.. i hope you dont mind what i'm posting.. it's the only way for me to express myself to the world. i'll just end this here. ciao