3 November 2010, 7.15pm

Phew~ exam ended! yay~ cnnt see her anymore! boo~ D: gahh.. have to wait till nxt year only can see her again. D: wells, nt gonna blog anything abt her nw(wells.. maybe ltr :P)

Hmm.. wells, things been going from bad to worst with my parents lately.. Argued with them fr like everyday? They just love criticizing me.. (which i really really really hate) Wells, mom called me fr dinner jz nw. Din hear her. Dad banged in my room and started screwing the shit outta me.. nearly gt kicked down the stairs too.. >.<>

Wells, tht's all fr nw. Will post again later.. :) ciao~

Time Flies... :/

Time flies real fast huh.. it's october nw.. kasturi ended.. my other tuition centre's ending this week.. (cannot see shermane till next year.. D:)sigh~ how i wish time would just rewind back to the time when i first met her.. and i'd made the right decision back then.. >.< it's been 3 months waiting for her.. Well.. i must admit.. it's quite long.. bt i think it's still worth the wait. It's the consequence i get afterall.. and she's still like have feelings for that bf of hers.. wondering when will they ever break up.. >.< Well anyways, next year's gonna be dead busy.. PMR.. x.x dieee. Hopefully, i'll have an awesome time with shermane if she accepts me. :D gonna study nw.. bloody finals are nearing.. -.- cant seem to concentrate on my studies.. my mind's full of shermane.. >.< forgot everything about maths and history.. diee. science too.. -.- grr.. GAHHH... gonna stop here.. must stuff everything inside as fast as possible.. >.< ciao

Skipped school... ._.

eahh... totally skipped school today... dont feel like going... Been having a harsh time yesterday... Stupid transfer thing.. failed once more.. and this is like the second time? grr.. bloody government.. okay, i used to be okay with studying myself.. bt something really weird happened to me just now.. i was like reading percy jackson..(last book :D yay) and then i started my maths revision.. when i got my eyes on those equations and other bullshit craps, my mind totally went blank.. it's like i've been brainwashed.. nothing seemed to get into it.. and i totally got fed up with it.. stopped maths after looking through page 2 of circles.. which i kinda have probs with.. i dont know what i can do now.. it's like i totally lost my way in d sea of knowledge.. nothing's in my mind now.. totally empty..(well, at least NOT THAT EMPTY as you knw i'm kinda like blogging here.. >.<)+ i dont wanna get everything confiscated by my parents..(especially my guitar and my blackberry D:) arghhhh!!! NICHOLAS!! why cant you just focus on your bloody studies!! CONCENTRATE!! GAHHH... I think i'm gonna go lunnie.. -.-

This week is just not my week..

Title states it all.. yeap... it's not the week i wanted it to be.. it's not even like any other normal weeks.. take today as an example.. shermane wore black on d past few days... so i taught she might wear black tees again today.. bt i was wrong.. instead, she wore white.. i guess we dont have "yun" as what us chinese calls it. And yeah... she's celebrating her birthday on saturday.. in redbox pavilion. I'm not sure if shermane herself is reading this. Bt i still gotta express myself here.(cuz twitter can only put up to 140 letters -.-) I was quite was i'm going to do though.. cause i could totally imagine shermane sitting wit her bf.. talking and laughing with him while i'm just sitting there, watching them having fun and all blah blah blah.. I must admit I'm kinda jealous though.. bt the only thing i worry is if they're gonna make out in that room with me looking.. i dun even knw what WILL happen.. burst into tears? get mad at her? i cant imagine anything.. I knw it's harsh.. bt i really hoped that she'd break up with him someday.. and well be with me.. i knw my transfer to her school had failed.. and it really impact me alot.. dont feel like going to school tomorrow.. getting sick of everything.. especially the government... I mean like, why cant they just approve me and let me go there. My form 2 results are not bad what.. only my bloody UPSR had 5 out of 7 As.. which is why i hated chinese that much.. if only i was in malay school.. i could totally get into sbs and be with her all the time.. now it's particularly hard for me to see her.. especially next year.. I doubt my mom would want me to go to that tuition centre.. which is the only way i could see her everday.. -.- i know this blog is open to all. Bt if anyone named adrian pang from sbs form 4 is reading this.. well.. i hope you dont mind what i'm posting.. it's the only way for me to express myself to the world. i'll just end this here. ciao

Untitled once more

Yea yea.. i knw i din blog fr quite some time... bored.. -.- miss her.. D: i only get to see her for like... 4 more times? o.o D: time passes real fast.. maybe i should write a song abt time... or not.. lazy.. EXAM IS COMING!! :O shit... didnt study a single damn thing.. DIE DIE DIEEEEE!! gahhhh!!! why must exams give me so much pressure?? ARGHHH!!!! everything's giving me pressure... from family to studies to relationships... D: how i wish i was still a baby... ><

It's getting more and more complicated.. ._.

This is just GREAT... it's getting more and more complicated... everything's not going the way i was expecting... my day was totally RUINED... ==" screw this shit.. i knw i'm kinda harsh now.. dont mind me guys, i get emotional when i'm pissed or jealous.. sry >< gonna end this post here. gonna sleep nw. hope i cn slp well tonight.. D:

Yeap i'm pissed..

Yeap.... i'm freaking pissed right now.. why cant i just spend more time talking to her? everytime i tried calling her, she'd be like, sis scold sry, or no reply at all cz her bf's talking to her. Is there THAT much to talk about? it's like, they start talking frm 9 till like 1? i talked with my ex fr only like 2hr+ bt it's actually 1hr something cz she does things or goes to d toilet most of d time and she still keeps her line on.. -.- wth.. sometimes she told me she wants to talk with me whereas doesnt wanna talk with him. Bt all of a sudden when he calls, she'll be like, hey i call u bck ltr can? ap's calling me. WTF is this? and i only get to talk to her fr 10 mins.. when i wanna get to d main point, she'd either answer her bf's call, or fell sleepy. -.- i dont get it, i knw i'm d other dude... bt cant i just spend one day with her? + she's not going fr tuition tmr, which means no shermane fr another day again.. GREAT.. she gets to see her bf all the time in school, why cant they just finish talking all their crap when they're in school? like what i just said, i knw i may be d other dude, i may nt be able to take ovr his place. bt cant let my day be a good one? i wait like an idiot every night until 1 in d morning. Then only i realize she slept and i dont even expect her to reply one single msg of mine every night before i sleep. sigh~ today's seriously not my perfect day.. -.- RUINED